my life is a series of acquaintances.

i want a long hug rather than a quick one. i want a long drawn out conversation rather than a quick one. i want long drawn out eye contact, not just a quick look. i want hands that stay on my for a full night, not just an hour. i don't want just a cup of coffee with a friend, i want a full day. i don't want these last days to just slip under the rug with all the requirements. emotion, hugs, tears, laughter, smiles, give it all to me. this is it right here, it's not how i pictured it ending, but i want to make it more than this, to take in the moment, sit back and take it all in, talk about the good, the bad, talk about the past and future, to sit back with someone, but not just anyone, and to say the last five years were the best five years of my life.